the Steel through the Fire.

           So I can't promise I will have much humor in this, I can't promise that this also won't become some irrational throw up on a blog that I usually hate reading. You know the ones that you are like ehhhhhh poor  girl, get a hobby and get off your blog? bahaha or the 14 year old girls who talk about how awful their life is when they have to go to school where their crush now knows that they have written his last name everywhere???
    Well my life has been an extreme downhill run this past week, just when I felt some kind of normalcy. From my computer charger being stolen, to all my teachers assigning some huge assignment, to every part of my car breaking, my life has been a mess. it is kind of ironic how fast your emotions can jump, last week was amazing my spring break was absolutely incredible, and yet between my roller coaster of life I seemed to keep my calm until today. Today was it for me, it just happened, something snapped and the worst possible thing happened.

Huge Meltdown!

    Oh it happened alright... if you can picture hysterical sobs, whole body shaking, nose running, and accidentally almost loosing a contact. In the middle of this please picture me in my car with all of southeastern's extremely put together and emotionless robots walking by staring or trying hastily to pull out their iphones. notmyshingingmomenttosaytheleast........

                  But with this craziness in my life, these ups and downs, highs and lows..whatever irritating cliche I can come up with I have been able to see the good in people. The good as in, the people who actually care, who actually do more than just pat me on the back and walk awkwardly away...(Believe me I am the queen of that because I am so awkward at depressing times anyway) but the people who actually call Starbucks 3 times to make sure the barista checked and rechecked that my charger wasn't there... the teacher who graciously allowed me to do my presentation at a later date without the horrible questioning of is this really just you trying to get out of it??? the ones who brought the books to you and let you keep them all day so you didn't have to run around campus all day. the ones who made you laugh and cook you dinner... the ones who listen to you cry and pathetically whine and still nod at the appropriate times... the one who calls to make sure you are okay and the one who makes the trip over to make your life better.... 

      So my life hasn't been great, and I have complained and ranted and raved and thrown fits and cried.... but sometimes you have to get all of that out to finally see the silver linings... to see the people who are rooting for you and helping you along your journey through this crazy life. It makes me completely humbled and grateful for those people, and for the few who actually made it to the end of this blog. It wasn't hilarious, it wasn't inspiring, it wasn't even anything completely new but it was something that after wading through all of that CRAP that happened to me this week, has come to me.  kinda like the steel through the fire.