Superhero-dragracer-peacecorps-the circus

               So today was an interesting day... ( like most of them) in which I skipped my first class and hung out with Professor Deborde instead. Now this was definitely not the brightest idea, or the smartest and less bright was to tell her I skipped my class to do this. there was some yelling, some very high angst and a question that made me stop and really think.
         First off, let us rewind to the end of Deborde's morning and the start of mine. Me, arriving at the tale end of  her class to bring her TA and my happy friend "Kristen" breakfast. Sneaking into what was last year her biggest class, now looking like a small group, seemed to take a toll on her today. Obviously speaking this aspect wasn't the smartest thing to do. and yet there I went into which she proceeded to tell me how many people skipped that day, how no one did their assignment right, and lalalalala. Obviously now is not the time to tell her I didn't read for my class today, or that I am skipping my other to catch up. Not my brightest moment.
        Between being reprimanded pretty heavily, being called a party girl, and her turning her ferocity on me, she asked me a question that seemed to stick with me all today. what do you want to do with your life?
ughhhhhh I HATE THAT QUESTION! 
               what makes things worse is I don't have an answer...Nope I have no idea, I have a 3.0 which means its not that high for a position in a grad school... (thank you for telling me that Deborde..) and obviously now is not a good time to ask her to write my letter of recommendation. Am I the only one with this mentality? the only one who skips classes, doesn't always have her work done on time? doesn't make straight A's???? I mean I am curious, I always thought I was just like everyone else I just voiced what others didn't but today I wasn't so sure...
         And let's be honest, I don't always skip class, to be fair this is my second skip of the semester. I always seem to pass by, and I make it every semester but does anyone else do that? Do I really seem to take the lead on being the awful student? Now to be fair to Deborde, no one wants to hear these shenanigans from a student, and yes I could do wayyyy better, and maybe have a "set" goal in what I want to do with my life, but that is what college is for,

STAYING UP WAAAAYYYY TOOO LATE...

drinking way to much coffee... 

sneaking off campus for taco bell

watching the sunrise from Starbucks

becoming friends with your teachers

random road trips to the beach

random road trips anywhere

learning to take really good notes for the guy next to you so he can return the favor when you want to skip

playing hooky to do something totally random and awesome

making friends 

being real

figuring out who you are. 

        This is what I seemed to have picked up in college. Once again, probably not anything that you are supposed to but this is our last hoorah at being kids, we are stuck between being teenagers and adults and sometimes you have to live. This is by no means degrading what she said to me... I needed to hear it, and soon I need to decide what to do with my life whether it be a teacher, a superhero, join the peacecorps, or last but not least... the circus.